OMG IT’S MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK: #THROWBACKTHURSDAY!
Kids, this is Devon Sawa. I was in love with him for years in grade school (from 1994 until 1996, or until I met Nick Carter). I dreamt about him at night, daydreamed about him during class, and kept his picture (in different sizes) in my wallet. I was pretty obsessed.
Donna Lewis - “I Love You Always Forever” (Now in a Minute, 1996)
I hated this song when it came out in 1996; I was too busy banging my head to Green Day or Foo Fighters or whatever back then. Now, I devour it openly and hungrily, especially when I’m stressed or anxious, with a deadline looming just around the corner.
For some reason, I feel like I’m the only person in the world who actually likes this song. Maybe because it’s too intimate, too earnest, too—why not—secretive, and so the liking of it feels intimate and earnest and secretive, too.
Maybe tonight, he’ll finally tell you that he likes you. Maybe he’s liked you for a while now, only he hasn’t said anything because he didn’t want things to get weird.
Or maybe you’ll finally tell him that you like him. It’s the 21st century and girls have balls now; those women didn’t burn their bras in the 60s so you could sit primly in a corner with your hands on your lap, waiting for some guy to make a move.
Or maybe he does know that you like him. Maybe he hasn’t said anything because he doesn’t feel the same way. And all those times he put his arm around you and bought you a drink and drove you home? He was probably thinking: cool co-worker. Little sister. Long-time pal.
Tonight, when he shares another one of his funny childhood stories, you’ll dare yourself to blurt out that you should be together, like you always do. And when he mentions the name of that girl he’s been in love with for over a decade, you’ll feel your entire body go numb, like you always do. But you know you won’t do anything about it. Not now. Maybe not ever.
Tonight, you know you’ll just rein in your stupid feelings and chuckle like everything’s cool, like you always do.
Download the FRIENDZONE MIXTAPE HERE. Download the tracked version HERE.
THE FRIENDZONE MIXTAPE track list:
1. Liz Phair - Extraordinary 2. Rachael Yamagata - Worn Me Down 3. Stretch Princess - Twisted 4. Sixpence None the Richer - Easy to Ignore 5. Tegan and Sara - Where Does the Good Go 6. Ingrid Michaelson - Die Alone 7. Mirah - Cold Cold Water 8. Sinead O’Connor - The State I’m In 9. Veruca Salt - Loneliness Is Worse 10. Beaker - Backgarden
You haven’t been to the beach since summer started. You haven’t been to a pool, either. Or a lake, or a waterfall, or a hot spring, or a friggin’ fishpond.
But as soon as you play these songs, in your mind, there’s sand between your toes and a breeze whipping your hair and sunshine roasting your skin and friends noisily splashing around in the water ahead. In your mind, you don’t look so bad in your string bikini. Scratch that; you look pretty darn fine. So fine, that you think you just might chat up that cute stranger with the curly hair sitting on the sand a few feet away from you. Maybe he’ll talk to you, even offer you one of those beers in the giant cooler next to him. Maybe Big Mountain’s “Baby, I Love Your Way” could come on through your little burger speakers at just the right time, and the two of you could share a look, and that could be YOUR SONG. Or maybe not; you were never really good at chatting up cute strangers with curly hair.
Made this mixtape because I wanted to have one with Big Mountain’s “Baby, I Love Your Way” in it. Heeheehee. Listen to last year’s summer mixtape here.
Download the Summer Jammer Mixtape HERE. Download the tracked version HERE.
SUMMER JAMMER MIXTAPE Tracklist:
1. Architecture in Helsinki - Heart It Races 2. The Tough Alliance - Silly Crimes 3. Rafter - Paper 4. The Mynabirds - Disarm 5. Vampire Weekend - Diplomat’s Son 6. Miami Horror - Imagination 7. CSS - Hits Me Like a Rock 8. Generationals - Put a Light on 9. PAPA - I Am the Lion King 10. Big Mountain - Baby, I Love Your Way
I’ve loved M83’s “I Guess I’m Floating” since I first heard it in the movie Like Crazy. Every time it comes on in my music player, I ache dully in some hidden, massive cavity in my chest. (I won’t explain the feeling any further; that would be taking the magic out of it.)
Anyway. That thing you hear is what happens when I’m still wide awake at 2am, with a song that stays stubbornly stuck on my mind.
This is a video taken at HIPHOUSE’s last event, which was the launching of LIEU Online Magazine, a new Davao-based online monthly that the HIPHOUSE girls are part of. (Check out the first issue here.)
I love this video because It shows just how fun the event was. And I’ll be honest—because it shows just how much the people enjoyed the music (I was the DJ for the night).
But don’t be fooled; my playlist wasn’t as edgy as that Project X club banger would make you believe. Somewhere in that video, people are dancing to The Knack, Bruno Mars, and—god forbid—Miley Cyrus.
In fact, one of the guests who came up to check out the playlist saw that I had loaded Ghost Town DJs’ “My Boo” in the next deck. He looked at me, bewildered, and said, “You’re not seriously playing that.”
I nodded my head slowly and answered, “Yes, I am.”